Lets Play Catch Up!

So. A lot has happened in a very short period of time, and its left me so tired.It's hard to believe its still May. A brief summary of the past few weeks: one of my best friends has been ignoring me, my parents found out about my plans to move, lots of school stress, grandmother in law is dead/dying.
And now to go into detail on how i feel about it all.
I'm really hurt that one of my best friends is ignoring me. He calls me his sister, but i dont find out about his latest breakup OR that he is back in the US from him, instead i find out with the help of Facebook. That hurt, it hurt even more when he completely ignored my message asking him to call me... :/

My parents and the move... oh boy. Hours of crying, and arguing and general unpleasantness. Now i hope to be in MO within 3-4 years... this makes me feel kinda stupid, and alone, and at times hopeless. And i know i shouldnt feel that way, but i do and that just adds another layer of feeling stupid.

School stress, well thats mostly finals and all the extra essays and papers i need to do by monday morning.

As for the death of a sorta relative... I cant say we were close, we arent even related by blood after all. But she was nice, and i had known her, i'd been to her home, eaten her cooking, used her restroom... odd things to remember a person by, but really, all i know is she was nice and she helped raise my cousins. So i'll remember her by her cooking, and her home, and her niceness, and others can remember her by her favorite things and her hobbies and such.

I guess these past few weeks have been painful in a way, and very very tiring. Emotionally and mentally i'm pretty much out of strength, i need to recharge, i wish i could spend the summer or at least a week or two in MO... I could use a real hug or 10. Im actually so bad of emotionally/mentally that the very thought of getting a real hug makes me cry... And you people claim i'm SANE.

QOD: Any advice?

QOD crazy edition: What is a spork-knife's favorite color?

A look back

A lot has happened recently and in this past year... I got to meet and become friends with some extremely awesome people. I also started and ended a friendship... I moved yet again, got a new niece, and even got pulled on 72 hour hold... So much has happened this past year,but a few things stick out the most: meeting aly, and my two favorite people, graduating early, fighting with aly, the hospital, ninja kiss, january 4th-9th, january 12th, certain fights with my mom, movie nights... This past year has been a tough one, but there are so many ways in which it was worth it.

So much has happened in a year, but not much has changed from the outside perspective. We are all still doing the things we did last year for the most part. We may have changed to the point of being a very very different person in our heads, but to the outside world we look the same. We work, and study, and play just as we always have. To the outside world we are all the same, slow to change, predictable, similar. Good thing the outside is a lie.


QOD:do you think you've changed in the eyes of the outside world?