Have you ever felt horrifying, monstrous, vile? Like some part of you, or maybe all of you is corrupt? I guess to some extent most of us feel this way at least once in our lives... I seem to feel it most of the time, or at least it used to be most of the time. Now it's only when I'm under a lot of stress, doesn't matter what kind of stress. It also happens if I let myself think too much. Unfortunately I'm currently stressed and thinking too much...
Things wrong with myself: I'm unattractive. I'm lazy. I'm weak willed. I'm socially awkward beyond 'normal' levels. I'm thinking about this way too much and could name a dozen more but don't want to bore you.
I should do something to snap myself out of this state of mind but I cant. Ah Well.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Happy Birthday me! now go act perfect in a corner and don't do anything anyone might disagree with!
Hey all, its been a while since I've done this... sorry about that. Anyway....
Happy Birthday to me, I'm now a legal adult. How the heck did this happen and why didn't someone try to stop it? :P Ah well, it's after midnight and therefor too late to change the inevitable. Today is also the 9th anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attacks. My dad still says the CIA did it. >,> Either way, I'm having a rather bad birthday. First there was the fire on the 9th, then one of my oldest friends decides i'm a bad friend for not saying "yes, you are right, you are always right! :D" and later today i get to pretend to be perfect for my relatives, hide my religion, and generally take on a completely different persona. I don't drink, they find that odd enough as is... if they know I believe in God they would disown me probably...
The good parts of my birthday are the presents from friends, and a certain letter from a particular friend... ^,^
I'm probably the only person that has wished they could skip their Bday since they were 9.... yay for being different! :P
QOD: What are your favorite and least favorite parts about your bday?
Happy Birthday to me, I'm now a legal adult. How the heck did this happen and why didn't someone try to stop it? :P Ah well, it's after midnight and therefor too late to change the inevitable. Today is also the 9th anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attacks. My dad still says the CIA did it. >,> Either way, I'm having a rather bad birthday. First there was the fire on the 9th, then one of my oldest friends decides i'm a bad friend for not saying "yes, you are right, you are always right! :D" and later today i get to pretend to be perfect for my relatives, hide my religion, and generally take on a completely different persona. I don't drink, they find that odd enough as is... if they know I believe in God they would disown me probably...
The good parts of my birthday are the presents from friends, and a certain letter from a particular friend... ^,^
I'm probably the only person that has wished they could skip their Bday since they were 9.... yay for being different! :P
QOD: What are your favorite and least favorite parts about your bday?
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