Have you ever felt horrifying, monstrous, vile? Like some part of you, or maybe all of you is corrupt? I guess to some extent most of us feel this way at least once in our lives... I seem to feel it most of the time, or at least it used to be most of the time. Now it's only when I'm under a lot of stress, doesn't matter what kind of stress. It also happens if I let myself think too much. Unfortunately I'm currently stressed and thinking too much...
Things wrong with myself: I'm unattractive. I'm lazy. I'm weak willed. I'm socially awkward beyond 'normal' levels. I'm thinking about this way too much and could name a dozen more but don't want to bore you.
I should do something to snap myself out of this state of mind but I cant. Ah Well.
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ok,,, let's see...
ReplyDeleteur not unattractive, or u wouldnt have josh
ur not lazy or u woldnt even b in school at all
ur not weak willed, or u wouldnt b christian even tho ur parents dont want u to b
and who cares if ur socially awkward beyond any levels, "normal" is overrated and thats not socially awkward, thats just cooler than everyone else
idk a whole lot, but what i do now is that ur one of the better ppl that i know... it sucks we dont talk more (tho i become broingto talk to after a while) but ya.. if i had a choice to hang out wiht u or like 85% of the ppl i konw, the "normal ppl"... i'd rather hang oput with u
idk how much i helped, but ya... im super psyched about u visiting again next whenever and if ur gonna b so hard on urself find some thngs that r actually wrong :)
lol
keep on being awesome
- Rob