Depression in the brain

It has been a while since my last update, and there is a good chance that it will be a while longer before I update again, for that I apologize. Im writing now as a way to get out of my head, it is currently an extremely unpleasant place to be, and it is getting worse quite rapidly. There have been plenty of things that i should tell you about but I cannot think to do that now, maybe in the next update. I have been reading the Bible more often lately, but I seem to understand it less. I try to remember to pray but I often forget. It has come to my attention that I am descending into another bad bout of depression, but once again I cannot stop it, I try, I pray when i can, i read, i try to distract myself, but it all feels rather hopeless and pointless. Its as if I'm falling down a shaft made of the smoothest glass and I keep trying to grab on to something to stop or at least slow my descent, but i cannot. Maybe what I need is for someone from outside to break through the glass. As things stand I feel hopeless and scared and very pointless. I am also very tired. Insomnia and a very strange dog keep me up all night, and as I lay awake the bad, depressive thoughts and the panic seep in until they are all i can think of. This time instead of asking some silly question I ask you to pray for me, and if you can find a way to shatter that smooth glass or at least give it some cracks, please do so.