Religion played a big role in my life when i was young. i went to privet school and said all the prayers. I did everything like i was taught and my favorite story was Noah's Ark. But then something happened... i dont know what. maybe it was that my parents got tired of the praying and such, or maybe something else happened. but for a long time i stopped believing. i think thats also when my depression first appeared. though its not so obvious for a young child. so i didnt like to play with other kids, and my grades were bad, i must have just been lazy. im sure thats what my parents thought. i remember being 3 and contemplating God and life... instead of taking a nap. yeah, i wasnt very 'normal'. by the time i was 6 i had figured out that my parents would have been happier if i didnt exist. At age 11 i was looking into other religions and finding myself fascinated. At age 14 i decided to try out Wicca, a year later i gave it up. And now i find myself drawn to one of the biggest religions out there... Except i have been raised to scorn it, to think it shameful. when i talked with my mom about looking into it she freaked out and almost forced me to stop talking to my favorite person... that was less than pleasant. I broke and bent a few rules and now have that Bible in my room, and even went to church once, though i couldn't understand a word said. And tonight i watched a sermon... One that i could understand even! And i found it interesting, and i dont know... something else, something i cant put to words, which is too bad. Basically, i liked it, but until im away from my family nothing will come of it. Ah well.
Sorry for the ramble.
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perhaps that feeling ucant explain is inspriation
ReplyDeleteinspiration doesnt have to b "omg, i now feel compelled to save the world or write a story, or praise jesus"
it could b just a small voice whispering something u cant quite hear, tho u strain urself to hear
and it is my unprofessional opinion that u should b a secret religious person until ur out of ur parent's house
just follow ur own heart.
thats what i do, for the most part
i have my own religious views that i dont really let my parents know, or most ppl, cause my parents wouldnt understand y i'm not catholic, i mean i went to a catholic school for 10 years.. and that's probibly y i'm not a catholic, cause i went to a catholic school for a decade
and i dont talk to most other ppl about it because idk they would understand me at all...
but thats enough out of me
bottom line is, dont let ppl tell u what to believe in, the best u can do is just try not to let it come up,and if it does, i suggest u kiss ass and tell them what they wantto hear, it's probibly better than the alternitive
Catholicism teaches us to not be ashamed or scared and to NOT hide our religion for any reasons (and most Catholics preach about that girl that "said yes" in the columbine shooting and such), etc...
ReplyDeleteI think all the here-say in modern "religion" is bullshit. Too much is influenced by human hands and human hearts, spat through the human gift of the silver tongue.
Follow what you believe in, and do what you think is right. You know my stance on religion, we just talked about it again about an hour ago...
Bear in mind, most (but not all) established religious figures assigned to preach religious texts do just that.. they preach the TEXT.
You've got me (and a small army of others) behind you 110%.
Can't wait 'till we both get to go "home" and have the whole family in one place...
also: thank God for spell check...
lol to hell with spellcheck
ReplyDeletenever use the damn thing
lol