Friday, January 1, 2010

Loneliness Creeping Up

Its always there
at the edge
the loneliness
its waiting for me

sometimes it creeps
slowly through the day
so i cant even tell
until its too late

sometimes it rushes me
takes me down fast
and i cant even fight back
cant call out for help

Its aways there
its in my head
the loneliness
its eating me



I cant seem to shake it lately, i'm lonely. but i dont want to be around my mom or dad... i want to be with my friends. And i cant be. So at night the loneliness gets worse and worse, it creeps into everything i do or think about... it makes me weak and afraid.

QAD: how do you deal with being lonely?

3 comments:

  1. to b honest, i dont sdeal with being lonely, i cant deal with it

    so instead i pretend it's something else, anything else,anything but what i secretly know it is

    i try to fool myself with ppl i pretend r my friends, i tal kto anyone, or anything willing to listen, or that doesnt have a choice but to listen

    like my cat, or god, or karma, or hell, i'll talk to myself... i'll get on this thing i have called palringo where i have my own group thing, where i'll talk to myself as different parts of my mind, like i'll talk as myself, as my good part (tryign to lead me down the right path) or my bad part(the evil i battle everyday)even my depressed part (who just feels sorry for me all the time)

    but i have to say... nothing works for long... nothing but talking to ppl who i believe r my real friends.. like u, for instance, or sue down south, or johnny the marine in japan

    but thats just me

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  2. i've learned to just accept it... i do research, talk to people, think about random things, plan things out, make random phone calls, etc...

    my advice is, when you take the dog for a walk, take a different (yet still well-populated and/or well lit) rout each time... not only will it help throw some variety in the mundane "me-time" you do get, but also makes it harder for anyone to pull any funny-business...

    and as for you, my mysterious little friend... you are much harder to identify on here than you probably realize. my initial thought was right, it seems... good to finally see something that shows me you're someone i can trust. i hereby designate you "fro."

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  3. good name :)

    also... adding to detach's suggestion, what u should do, along with brqnd new paths, during ur regular ones just randomly go down a block u regularly wouldnt... then go around and get back on course

    it'll help randonize ur route a bit more

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